first rave, first time rollin j’s.. lots of firsts.
gotta take advantage of winter break. this could be my second to last winter break of my life :/
something a lot less unhappy:
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passed those midterms.. hit below the class average on all of them, but passed nonetheless, a huuuge relief for me. really gotta step up my game though, there’s not many graded assignments left. it’s scary how fast our first quarter’s over halfway done. surreal shit. less than two years until graduation… planned out my schedule for the next year. studying abroad for a month this summer. staying in davis for the remaining summer and winter breaks for the next two years. i forget about home kinda often now, though there’s those certain individuals who i miss so much. i wish i had more to go back to.. sometimes i feel forgotten.
so boring school stuff aside,
that haunting anxiety has wilted away. i found just what i lacked and needed: supportive and caring people. depression doesn’t take over my daily thoughts anymore. i feel okay. thanks to dylan, i am friends with a kickass group of transfers. dorks. even though i’m the youngest, no one notices. friday and saturday nights are so fun, yet sooo mellow. we just stay in and drink. everything is funny. my lungs always end up hurting. there’s not more i could want. for the past two-three days (and weekends), i’ve been mia at my apartment. i feel like i’ve known these people since high school. there will be more birthday celebrations this weekend, it shall be funn
passed out on the couch. woke up for this picture and then went back to sleep. little do you know: i was the only sober one haha
skipped class to play mario kart with justin.
skipped discussion to get free pizza and wear an ugly costume.
sacrificing my grades for the good little things.. it really shouldn’t be done, but it’s the only way for me to forget my depression
while i get my shit together.
presented with a basic challenge
run away, ignore, forget, succumb
coward
it’s the usual me
unproductive
red bull is ineffective
stayed over at the dorms on a school night, thanks to the lovely hosts of 304. biked back to my apartment at 7:40 am. class starts in a couple hours.
what change of pace from last week, a complete 180. must be the luck of the irish. things have been going very well. i’m not going to fail. guess i’ll be okay afterall..
yeah, these writings are ridiculous. this blog looks like the diary of someone who’s legitimately suffering from bi-polar disorder.. well, maybe i am, but i’m feeling so much better. relieved.
one of my favorite albums ever
